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Friday, July 8, 2011

The question I often ask my self "Where the Hell did Becky go?"





Today as I pre pair to head back to Yale AGAIN to meet with the doctors I think of what a Big appointment this is.  Today we find out the stage of the cancer what type of chemo Ill be receiving learn about radiation and how my life is TOTALLY going to change.  All I know is that I once.... and still am  a VERY VERY strong women I just have NO control over this and that  sucks .  For those of you who know me well from my Past and present know that I love.......... to be in control and I HATE not knowing what will happen next.  Today at this moment I have zero control and that scares the shit out of me. 
    I know that I will be smiling and laughing and enjoying my children's jokes and look forward to being able to help them play ball  and all thoae fun things that require movement lol!  I will post later on how it goes but for now IM GOING  to get dressed and pop a xanax haha!!!!!!

7 comments:

  1. You are an amazing woman! I know family keeps you strong and as much as you want to be in control, you are! Love you!

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  2. Thinking about you lots. My whole family wishes you nothing but love and strength.

    Jon P.

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  3. I am thinking of you! You rock, and don't forget it. Someday you will look back on this and it will just be a part of your past, not your present or future...

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  4. VERY, VERY strong indeed...Thinking of you but knowing you will be strong! <3

    Melissa Chiappone

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  5. Becky, you didn't go anywhere. With or without cancer you are still God's precious child. A child with a purpose and a plan. Do not give in to the self-doubt. Continue to keep your eyes focused above and allow us to hold you up to our Father who is working out that plan right now. Love you & look forward to seeing you soon. Laurie

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  6. Becky is stronger than ever and has her loving, giving spirit alive and well in herself, family, friends, social connections! It pains us to see your struggle, but gives us joy as you overcome each obstacle...tears, fears, pain are all part of your difficult journey, you will overcome as an even stronger Becky than you are right now!! Love you, Aunt Lynne

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  7. You are beautiful with or without make-up. You are amazing......I see you have plenty of help and company. Let me know if you need anything!xoxo
    Angela

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