Friday, July 8, 2011
The question I often ask my self "Where the Hell did Becky go?"
Today as I pre pair to head back to Yale AGAIN to meet with the doctors I think of what a Big appointment this is. Today we find out the stage of the cancer what type of chemo Ill be receiving learn about radiation and how my life is TOTALLY going to change. All I know is that I once.... and still am a VERY VERY strong women I just have NO control over this and that sucks . For those of you who know me well from my Past and present know that I love.......... to be in control and I HATE not knowing what will happen next. Today at this moment I have zero control and that scares the shit out of me.
I know that I will be smiling and laughing and enjoying my children's jokes and look forward to being able to help them play ball and all thoae fun things that require movement lol! I will post later on how it goes but for now IM GOING to get dressed and pop a xanax haha!!!!!!
Posted by Deb at 11:25 AM