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Tuesday, August 16, 2011

The Hair is gone.... and I am very bald!!!!

     So the time has come bald it is!  Day 12 after my first chemo came and the hair started thinning and as the days went by I stopped touching it to keep it as long as possible 5 days later it was time.  Half my hair feel out and what a mess it made I kept saying sorry to my in laws as my hair was everywhere.  Then after I got out of the shower I brushed my hair very gently only to have the brush fill up with my hair in just one brush.  I had a reverse Mohawk  and it wasn't a keeper!! Matt the kids and I were up in Maine with the Matts family having a great family vacation.  I looked at my sister in law Steph and said today's the day can you shave my head?  Her eyes quickly filled up with tears because we all know I LOVED my long hair and this was the moment I was most dreading. She agreed that it was time and after the town parade was over I went to Alex and told him that it was time just to give him a heads up and he said mom your hair is fine its just thinning.  I told him that I had lost most of it in the shower as soon as I took off my head scarf he agreed it was time.   I went into the bathroom by myself took one last look at myself with my hair or a half head of hair and just cried and cried and cried then walked out of the bathroom and said ok I'm ready...............  I love my bald head way more then the 8 million strands that were falling out every second.  I held on as long as possible but I am fine with the out come.  I thought for half a second about not posting my pictures of the hair buzzing but thought its a big part of my journey and I want to share this journey all of it so here they are:)

                         Thank you steph I know how hard this was for you! Love you girl!!!
And my Izzi girl was ready to help!!!

                                          The clippers did all they could now its time for the razor

                                    The tears for a moment!!!! This was an awe shit I really have cancer!!!
         We invited the kids to come watch only if they wanted to and they were all glued to it    they all  look pretty shocked but not one of them could walk away from the moment it was sweet!
                         This is me thinking ok its Just hair Becky get over it...itll be back before I know it!
                                                                 Razor time!!!!
                                                Steph and Matt hard at work!

                                       Tori Stacy and Aunty Sharron all there for support
The finished product Ive never seen anything so white in my life lol!

Family Vacation

What a great trip as always to Maine.  The kids had a blast tubbing and jet sking all over the lake no better time then being out side together as a family lots of great memories were made.  I loved nothing more then seeing my kids smile and hearing them laugh all week.  I have a whole differnt outlook on the things that I once took for granted.  You never know whats next in your life so taking in the childrens laughter is one of may favorite things.  I am so thankful for my life...I know its not all a breeze walk at the moment but I am thankful that I have a great family and my health will be back.

                                      Now thats what Im talking about I love that smile


  1. I just cried a little. I gotta say, you look stunning with no hair. I love it! It looks like a great trip and I'm glad you were all able to get away and have some fun!

  2. Oh, how I love you AND your great attitude, Becky! My first thought seeing the pic of you with bald head next to Alex, was you look like a star who purposely shaved her head bald (a bold, confident, "I am woman even without hair" statement). Thanks for sharing all. A coworker- as my Mom, your Grammy was diagnosed with brain.lung cancer= said EMBRACE IT! You are embracing it, not hanging out in all fear, depression, tears, but thinking positively, joking, accepting the progression of each step of your recovery. So proud of you, girl...thanks for being such a beautiful inspiring woman!!!

  3. Beck, every time i read your blog ( which I love to do), you simply amaze me with your bravery & courage while you go through this chapter of your life. You are in my thoughts all the time! Keep smiling....xoxo

  4. Ah Becky your faith, courage and bravery shine through. I love you. Theresa